Offended? Nope.

I was offended months ago, when you wouldn't accept my help.
I was more offended when Madam St. C of W offered you the same help and you were gushing over it.
But then I remembered how sick you are, and I forgave you.
Despite what St. C says, I know its not all about me ;-)

So where's St. C these days?
Won't she bathe you, and clothe you, and anoint you in oil and Bless you and pray for you?

She doesn't work, and she's not sick like I am right now.
I can't carry my own self around some days, how the hell am I supposed to carry you?

Nope. Not offended.
You make up these scenarios, and you believe them, but I know they're not true, so why would I be offended?

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