The Perimeter

 Having a super bad pain day today. The kind that makes me feel useless and feel like I will never be useful again. The kind of day where I need help, and I hate asking for it. The kind of day where I know why old people are grumpy, if they are in this much pain every single day, then its no bloody wonder they're grumpy. Current pain level as I write this, is about a 5 or 6, but this morning, it was more like 7-8. List of complaints for the day:  I feel like my knees are made of glass, and my left knee is swollen Lower back where I twisted my spine: feels how I would imagine the tin man in the Wizard of Oz, and he needs some oil on his joints. Bending is painful, and add the glass feeling there too. Upper back from shoulder blades up is stiff, shoulders and neck are stiff, arms from elbows to wrists  hurt, hands from knuckles to fingertips hurt. I probably shouldn't be typing, but I need to purge my addled brain, as I woke up thinking about this, and hamster was having a ...

  I am writing to you today as a follow up to an appointment I had with you in your office 3 years ago this month, when you told me I would be in a wheelchair by now. Dr.. D., you probably don't remember me, but you sure made an impact on me that day. I went to my appointment with you full of anticipation and hope. It had taken approximately a year and a half from the time I first saw Dr. C. W. at the clinic in M with severe pain and swelling in my right knee. I did a follow up appt with Dr. S. A, my then family doctor (since 1995 -- I am NOT an addict), who referred me to you. I've had pain in my knees since I was a teenager. I'm now 56 years old. When I was a child back in the 70's I was involved in figure skating, gymnastics, baton twirling and dance in addition to riding my bike just about everywhere I needed to go. At age 13 I tore the cartilage in my knee ice skating, and then did it again at age 16 landing a cartwheel roundoff combination wrong. At age 21, I agai...

It has come to my attention that I supposedly posted "something negative about the Society"  on the auction. I do not recall doing such a thing. Furthermore, Why would I? This will be my 16th summer at SJ. In all those years, I have loved working there, learning so much from B, and representing the Society at dozens of paid and unpaid venues. As you know, I work very hard at what I do, and I work a lot of unpaid hours gathering material, researching information, learning new techniques, work prep and our fb page. Wherever I go, when appropriate of course, I tell people about our place and what we do.    I'm rather insulted that "someone" would say such a thing. Why didn't this "someone" talk to me directly about this? At the time it happened? Instead of this "someone told someone, that someone told someone and that someone told me" junior high school foolishness. If that "someone" is referring to my conversation with PKP about t...